Choctaw Nation of Oklahoma

treated like an animal
shown horrible things so i would feel sadness
placed directly under satellite so i would feel worried
sexually repressed felt like parents and family were coming onto me
which was disgusting to me and very uncomfortable
places where you live seem like they are controlled, i moved to two
different places, both in the end seemed like they were controlled by
the same forces
who had an intricate connection to pornography and deep knowledge of
my personal life, possible the choctaw indians
blatant representation of the so called ‘patriarchy’ my dad who they
tried to frame as patriarchy
on the interneet they set it up to look just like your family and
friends ‘Mosuo Matriarchy’
Mosi is my dad, several videos of family member look alikes in
schizophrenia videos, and pornographic videos

to treat they give cannabus but unwilling to stop historical and
family based bdsm (juxtaposed on Black History, too disrespectful)
a hacker, a fraudulent psychologist, the FBI? Firefly Academy? The
Choctaw Chickasaw tribes? Masons?

I fear theres several things they can do with the recipe to end up in
me being imprisoned in a hospital
forced to take horrible poisons ignoring by personal body chemistry
thats the bad side of the shaman

they tried to make me a slave, and make me another person, claiming
racism, and hung up but not actually doing anything to solve the
problem
just stating past grievances over and over again,

they set up a huge illusion to seem like they were all that boring and
by the book and completely sterile in history books as written

but i don’t know

what if i am a secret agent? but i’m also schizophrenic, this is too
much, I would never operate to enforce control tactics like that, if
the government wanted me to, I would rebel and spread messages of
peace to think for yourself and understand the tao. Thats what I’ve
been trying to do, thats what my idea of what being an Agent was like
anyways, kind of an archetypal ninja, but not seriously

the herb was always there throughout though, the Ness, cannabis,
Kanneh, as if it was a blessing from the Yomo
as if to say it was only a ritual, only a test,
a point of lucidity…
i had to prove myself in some way, but there was no way the world
could truly be like that

they are real fractal psychological attacks, MK Ultra, Mosi Kitwana,
that is my dad, I just don’t know anymore
if it was all designed to be this from the beginning, if all of the
people I knew were just pawns in some government thats wants to treat
us like machines,
I just dont know anymore, anyone who does LSD and really goes there,
you dont know, but with me especially, just because of all this stuff
around it… that is also definitely in this physical world,

worst kind of attacking ‘Fleming’ became a huge painful thing, like
revolting to my senses, making me feel as if I was being touched,
sneezing parents, and this girl Ruby Jacobs and her sneezing fetish,
and its like they would try to snort my semen, it was invasive,
similar to yopo ritual of snorting dmt, they had furniture that looked
like an ayahuasca setting even down to a ornately decorated cutting
from a plant looking a lot like a caapi vine, it was like literally
the shaman
that kind of paganism that becomes parental rape, its not normal,

high stress, especially over sex can cause shamanic experience
its fake though
i dont know if its just jeaousy or just them trying to exploit me
it definitely feels like being milked like an animal, overmilked with
no empathy as to my feelings

i want to help the spirits of those who suffered here at harpers
ferry, not turn into one of them, thats what they want me to do,

oka nahullo

i am ayahuasca, thats how they treat me, i dont need the repressive
sex paradigm or the chair or christianity, this stupid secret silent
ritual of trying to make it like santo daime, and not say anything
about it,

i am able to redeem it by not making it all about power, dont try to
manipulate sexual energy like that, thats not where the true magic
lies, it lies in passion and having good intent, all that all of that
sex stuff did was make this a lame movie set, i never adhered to it
anyway, they just kept trying to impose while at the same time,
denying they knew anything about shamanism.

asides, the sexual magic goes against jewish law,

at the same time, they did things like provide cannabis, it was more
hindu than nazi, it was mysticism

i passed their test of the psychedelic chimerical tribe , i didnt want
espionage drama and oppresion, instead my ninja way was just
consciousness, intelligence, it wasn’t doing official things at all
but helping beings to be lucid, without hypnosis,
what america is really about

the tested me and they recognized my mysticism and my wanti practice,
they recognize i am wanti, they wanted to know, i am a friend of the
jews and all peoples and beings to help them, but also much of it
depicted in media is illusion, tv especially and current events in
form of news are shunned by hippies, they used enough magic to somehow

overcome framing me, not just stories this is reality, faith provides
us with a story to make us believe in mystery

it can only get stronger

psychedelic intelligence, its never really organized but if you are
aligned with nature and appear
and go as needed, and artfully and subtley apply and spread the
gnostic sutras you are an agent of tao

please help its like your confused then they start being like go
attack this and that

ahimsa,

Hashem spoke to me then and also Hashtali, explaining that it was
happening because of the programming of the torah and of ayahuasca
shamanism which had linked themselves to me because they at first
appeared to be good and indeed in their true forms they are truly good
’
“you have the power to change the torah at will
everyone does but consciousness makes it more effective
the torah is always changing”

the torah is one with the practice of zazen

when i realized Torah is literally the practice of zazen, I awakened,
i was able to change the torah at will, not being hung up upon the
tradition over actually morality, and was able to use the Torahs
form as a kind of loose madlib, substituting different terms whenever
there was violence involved or injustice, for the Tree of Life itself
inspired me, I set a path for myself, to own no other being and
regard them all equally and to plant trees, when i practiced in this
way twas an organic

second ago connection to the natural mishnah and living tradition of
judaism as the living word, a flowing tome always changing, a
philosophers stone not a document lodged permanently in one time and
set of circumstances, these are limits upon the divine. I realized
how there could be peace, there would be no more possession and it is
the duty of all beings to unite zazen meditation with the spiritual
teachings in order to make them living and relevant

the torah was also able to change into anything, it was literally a
magical book blessed by hashem, with full lucidity i became a house
for Hashem and spoke truly and without harm not causing fear but
intense joy and end of suffering, united with the magic within
myself, every jew in reaching adulthood must go through this

they did it because i wrote a mystical blog as a teenager and i
recieved messaged from the CIA or so i thought, I decline the offer to
join, but now they know my

character, so much good info seemed to become rare now hopefully it
will come back, i have told the story in the best way i can
considering the bizarre circumstances

these were people who seemed like jewish people telling me this, truly
spiritual, they practiced for good, they were not caught up in just
following laws if it stopped them from being moral, they had the
living connection to spirit, the Hashem, that made them able to see
all names as one, they had the connection to wanti, and to the
choctaw, and all the peoples of my life, as the rainbow people, it was
told in a fractured way but i had seen the truth, brought it together,
this was an ancient prophecy like Aztec, in how it really was the
moving of mountains, but in my case, the planting and expansion of
many great forest and nature loving spirits, it happened in sync with
2012, the Choctaw people and the Jews were all tricksters working
together, working so the traditional stories could be saved and
encouraged, but the oneness could be seen among all peoples, we didn’t
really have a name as people, but you could see us as similar to the
cetra from final fantasy 7,
any true jew hears the call of Hashem and is not for slavery, Hashem
has always spoken through the animals and we ourselves are not just
human form we are form of consciousness, any true jew, leaves all that
limitation behind and finds that the torah, the living word is being
created everywhere all the time by all who think with their thoughts
all who write with their words, it is everything and even that which
is not worded, we are it, and thus our lives are sacred and magical,
we paint a sacred story for ourselves and the rest we let surf in the
zen and hope good comes to us.

I am glad to be with the Yomo and in the sacred way, here

as for the strange banging it seems to go on, but everyday i pray it
can not be so bad, i pray the satellite has no effect and avoid it as
much as possible, i try not to be stressed.

we are the true jewish peoples, we are the true rainbow peoples, we
are all forms of life, united by spirit, by the Ness, the spiritual
experience is sacred to us, and integral to our lives, but we cannot
let immorality eclipse it and pretend to be it, this is never truly
from God, or from Goddess.

It doesnt matter which you say in this kind of Judaism, we are the round table.

It makes sense, down to the houses being so controlled, which
correlates to the real estate aspect talked about by ayahuasca
shamans… by unearthing more of this story, hopefully it will cause
something to open up
its shamanic, it seems mundane, and magical at once…
maybe it really is a healing from beyond that had to happen at this
time and later well be so happy for it, but for now, im just trying to
get it over with
i respect all shamans, but i am just an amanita muscaria shaman, and wantist,
i dont like a lot of structure around the trips, its not broadway, its
introspection, not influenced by outside.

it is a vision that the plant spirits were giving me, because the herb
was there throughout, it didn’t make sense
but cannabis is that sacred, and through going through this dance, and
sticking with it
i kind of uphold ancient jewish teachings, and show that i truly love
cannabis, and cannabis is whats truly good
we’ve been through so much together, and we are parts of eachother, we
are not clones,
never clones, no two are the same, so much detail, its important, lets
create a real cannabis culture a sacred one
not just a adjunct to pornography, but it could be matriarchal, thats
all i’ve been trying to do, and no doubt many others
no i am a part of it, i have become a part of that something, i am not
sure what it is, but i’ve gone up to them
in the middle of the cosmic mistake, i’ve shown them what i can
and i’ve said i see what it is
they respect that, they see i am really crazy, but also just spiritual
they understand i just wanted there to be free speech truly
why hip forums wanted to battle me about it i dont know,
its not a ritual, its just zen stuff, its not programming
dont go exactly on my words, just understand what i mean
sometimes we can’t be perfect, this is not toltec, those guys took it
a little too far
nobody is impeccable, but if we try thats enough
dont do it exactly like the books, chaos1

its true at points you can really mess with someones mind, but why do
it continously? why never just cause joy in them? do we go through all
that
just so we can be ready for the joy which is much more permanent, is
this a true kundalini awakening, in the context of the choctaw tribal
wisdoms, which unites supposed opposites in a ritual and takes out the
edge of a fight and just makes it into a dance like male and female?

i see transgendered people around me, i feel its time i began living
at a woman…
outgrowing the disrespect, of course no one is serious all the time but
the ways of the old are getting too cumbersome,
The Goddess is turning the page, being a woman isn’t about the stuff
they talk about it, just just a spirit if thats what you are great,
its beyond that, its just a certain way of being, i will dress as who
i really am, and i will live in the paradigm thats true to me and my
spirit journey, not just science, something with no heart of
personality….

and i go around living this, in harpers ferry west virginia, please
have compassion on me, i had no idea it would go this far, i didn’t
want that, i didn’t know it was so rare to start a religion, or a new
school of a religion, but i do it just in a selfless way, so there can
be more variation and also more oneness, a religion thats not
focussing on differences as if they are bad or somehow imply that it
can’t be together.

im not much of a leader, miraculously most of that kind of stuff has
been avoided, just strange yogic things happen occasionally and i feel
like heavenly things are a foot, its really happening in a divine way,
its a dream for me to see it.

i am here but i am not a mason, maybe i will go somewhere else, i’de
like to go to seattle or something, or maybe great things will happen
here, everywhere they will happen, because its connected to
everything…

its just something im doing it means a lot to me, and maybe a few
others understand but its just meant to manifest in this way, kind of
surreal, not realy a huge deal, but its there doing something, like
all the other mysteries of the world, imagine how many out there, all
going at once, at times i am very lonely, but at times i feel them all
together, in wanti and i know its happening, and i see the magic
letting the world be what it is,

it is beautiful like a japanese mural, i practice zazen and live,
trying for good, loving hippies, and magical things, and wisdom, and
truth, and trying to pass that on, like timothy leary and terrence
mckenna, and gil scott heron and jack kerouac and rabbi simeon bar
yohai, and so many alchemists of the past, and so many mystics, and
healers,

i have found wholeness with my spirit, now i still try to refine it
more and more, not forcing anything but allowing it to float together,
i trust that it will pay off, i know it will, it works it is real, it
is divine, my life is not wasted, it is just different, mysterious are
the ways of God.

its become different, its not families, its literally the Shekinah, we
manifest the divine, its returning to the way i saw it as a kid,
again, im so happy, and thoughts cannot be trapped
no we can all change the torah,
it changes all the time, it is everything, its not set it stone, no
its alive, we are parts of it, we cannot help but change it, for love
of Goddess!

the reason the choctaw said they were for the confederacy is because our culture just isn’t in that kind of duality and we don’t care to try to be defined by it, just like the Choctaw there is no man or woman, and everyone is automatically one tribe and all beings, so yeah…

our people have many layers and sides, and have appeared all over the world, in many changing forms, we are the people of the rainbow several tribes, but our essence in once, we have a vibration map of the true people we are consciousness, spirit, lights transforming, we bridge the world when the spirit grows it sees the truth
the old is cast off they knowingly walk with us
the ancients
ones with compassion who gave the signs pointing to the underlying pattern beyond ego
the beat generation
a level of underground alchemical culture
only with a magical heart do you begin to understand
can you enter sacredly to the living world of wanti – Hashtali

all of it was not government at all but gypsy magic

i am just a gypsy…
that is all.